If I Let You Go: The heart-breaking and shocking new novel from the bestselling author of If I Can't Have You

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If I Let You Go by Charlotte Levin is a deeply moving and gripping portrayal of a woman coming to terms with loss. Every morning Janet Brown goes to work, cleaning offices. The order and neatness of her routine calms her. All the things she cannot change in her life fade away momentarily under a damp cloth and some bleach. However, the one thing that cannot be erased is the guilt she feels over the death of her seven-year-old daughter, Claire. Then, on the night of what would have been Claire's eighteenth birthday, Janet is involved in a life-changing event. As the tragic incident unfolds, she makes a decision that could give her the redemption she seeks. But as Janet knows all too well, grasping a window of opportunity can lead to devastating consequences . . .

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A gripping story. My heart was in my mouth! -- Ruth Jones, author of Love Untold
This emotional rollercoaster is alternately heart-breaking and hopeful. I was gripped. * Daily Mail *
Heartrending and surprising, with an very believable protagonist, this is a tale of loss, grief, abuse and fractured relationships. A tremendously moving second novel from Charlotte Levin. * Culturefly *
Exploring grief and guilt, this thriller is an easy page turner. Heartfelt but with a dark streak. * Heat *
Levin's debut If I Can't Have You was a must-read and this new book is just as addictive. * Good Housekeeping *
What a treat this book is. There hasn't been a protagonist who has got under my skin in such a big way since Eleanor Oliphant. I rooted for Janet from the first page, and in all her sadness and shyness, wanted the best for her. Beautifully observed and tender, this is a story of redemption, of loss and survival, full of twists and turns, and with a big northern heart pulsing throughout -- Julie Hesmondhalgh, from The Pact, Broadchurch and Coronation Street
A moving portrait of a coercive marriage that will have you gripped to see if Janet will break free * Women & Home *
A thoughtful, beautifully written book about grief, and ordinary people being thrown into extraordinary circumstances. Unusual and compelling, with just a touch of humour. Loved it -- Catherine Cooper author of The Chalet and The Cruise
Impossible to put down, this is a darkly brilliant novel that balances the heartbreak with the humour. -- Louise Hare, bestselling author of This Lovely City
Powerful, hard-hitting, provoking -- L.V. Matthews, bestselling author of The Twins and The Prank
Tremendously powerful. Nobody writes quite like Charlotte Levin. It's at once uplifting and heartbreaking; excruciating and inspiring. She captures the essence of her characters like no other writer I know. A brilliant achievement. -- Emma Christie, bestselling author of Find Her First and The Silent Daughter
I loved If I Let You Go. It is beautifully written, stark yet redemptive moving, hopeful, powerful and wonderfully human. Charlotte Levin is the queen of complex narrators. I feel like Ive known Janet all my life. -- Caroline Hulse, author of All the Fun of the Fair
Utterly gripping, almost unbearably poignant yet warm, wise and full of hope - a story I'll remember for a long time. -- Frances Quinn bestselling author of The Smallest Man
An intensely beautiful depiction of vulnerability that instantly draws you into the world of a disturbingly fragile woman. This is powerful and subtle writing that is incredibly moving. An exquisite book! -- Victoria Dowd, author of A Book of Murder
Charlotte Levin is one of the most interesting and talented writers around at the moment -- Trevor Wood, bestselling author of Dead End Street
It is both heartbreaking and hopeful - Charlotte writes the most stunning prose and her character observations are both darkly humorous and incredibly insightful. I loved it! -- Nikki Smith author of Look What You Made Me Do
A deeply empathetic exploration of grief, loneliness, guilt, toxic relationships and forgiving oneself. At its heart, this is a poignantly sad story, but it is told with such humour and warmth that one cannot help but enjoy every nuance drawn through the perfectly written prose -- Louise Fein, author of People Like Us
If I Let You Go is a funny, dark, heart-breaking book about love, courage and finding yourself. With sharp characterisation and warmth on every page, and a heroine youll be rooting for from the word go. I absolutely adored it. -- Eleni Kyriacou, author of She Came To Stay

Author Bio

Charlotte Levin has been shortlisted for the Andrea Badenoch Award, part of the Northern Writers' Awards, and for the Mslexia Short Story Competition. Charlotte lives in Manchester and If I Can't Have You was her debut novel.